Fourteen days into the New Year and yet, for me, today feels like a new start.
Getting laid off is so odd. You go into work on a Friday and find out you will no longer have a job that Monday. No warning, nothing, completely blindsided. If I’m being honest though, I didn’t love the job… and I find myself wondering why we put up with things we shouldn’t and why I waited for someone else to rid me of something I should have walked away from a while ago.
For someone who doesn’t handle disappointment too well, I’ve got to say I’m kind of excited for what this year will bring. Maybe it’s because it’s January and there’s a sense of “endless opportunity” in the air (even though it’s just another month, but ya know what I mean). I am thankful for the positivity that has surrounded me (shout out to my family, friends and bb). I am confident that the best is yet to come.. and if you’re also in a season filled with unknowns.. a) you’re not alone .. b) I believe the best is yet to come for you too.
So in honor of the hope bubbling up inside of me, I’ve decided to make a list of measurable/immeasurable goals that I hope to achieve this year:
I have found that society’s definition of success has had a big impact in my life. I find myself rushing into things, in an effort to “catch up” or “not be left behind”… wth does that even mean? This year I want to let go of that idea of success, slow down and focus on living a meaningful life. In the midst of the rushing, I feel like my relationship with God has taken a hit.. and so I’m excited to refocus and regain new perspective.
Get my license:
If you know me.. you know this has been my biggest struggle. The thought of driving would give me so much anxiety and I literally pictured myself killing people on the road.. smh. Midway through last year I decided 2018 would be the year. A couple hours of lessons later, a mini car accident (wasn’t my fault), fast forward to my road test and I fail before I even have a chance to take it (again, not my fault.. I promise). 2019 has to be my year.
Update: as of March 1st, I am licensed!!! Woo!!
More art, more love, more genuine interactions:
I want to invest my time doing things that spark joy (shout out to Marie Kondo). I want to be a part of things that have a positive impact on people. I want to read more. I want to go to more shows. I want to support my artistic friends. I want to sit down with people who are different from me, share stories, grow. I want to spend more time with my family who lives out of state. I’ve always been interested in portrait photography.. maybe I can invest in that this year.. feature different people in this blog.. okay now I’m just rambling.
It still hasn’t hit me that I have the power to rewrite the rest of the year because it is no longer going to look how I thought it was. The silly part is that it took me unexpectedly losing my job to come to terms with something that has always been true.
Here’s to discovering the best version of myself, and I hope you do too!