So much has happened since my last blog post! Life has been really hard, but I’ve never been this thankful.
You see, I’ve been a Christian since my junior year of high school and my relationship with God has gone through many seasons. In the beginning I was like a child who had just learned to walk. I was so curious about who Jesus was, and I would read read read and fill myself up with knowledge. At that point I had discovered religion but God would soon teach me more about relationship.
My freshman year of college was really hard but Jesus was definitely my rock. I would spend most my free time nose deep in the Word and books that have definitely changed my life. The following year I switched schools, switched majors, and got a job. As time went on, I found that the busier my life was, the less I would prioritize my relationship with God and then I would hit rock bottom and come running back to Him. Sound familiar?
I remember one day feeling stuck and asking God, “is this all there is to Christianity?”.. I had reduced God to an experience I felt on Sundays instead of seeing Him for who He really was: alive, always present, yearning for a relationship with me.. with you.
I’d read about people like Corrie Ten Boom, A.W. Tozer, Hudson Taylor, Elisabeth and Jim Elliot, etc. and wondered if my life would ever look like that. I’d read the book of Acts and desire to see that in my lifetime.
Last year I went through a few months of crazy disappointment. I was upset with God and began to question my calling, badly. Sound familiar?
Without going into too much detail, I was the female version of the prodigal son. And one day I realized that I was made for so much more than the things I was allowing into my life. You are made for so much more.
Do you know that “your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour”? (1 Peter 5:8). I wasn’t living my life as if I knew that.. and so I made myself an easy target.
Things didn’t magically change overnight, but I told myself that I would start to live my life more proactively. I started to put my faith into action. I’ve always had a heart for missions, and so I signed up to volunteer in New Orleans alongside strangers from all over who instantly became like family. I asked God to lead me to a church in my own city that was mission minded, a place where I would grow alongside people who shared some of the same dreams that I did.
Guess what? God was faithful and lead me there. He knew exactly what I needed and His timing was perfect.
If you’re feeling stuck or like you want more out of your spiritual life.. don’t be afraid to ask the One who already knows what’s in that heart of yours.
There have been many seasons from the moment I made the decision to accept Jesus into my life until now. Today I am learning:
- His grace is enough to get me through the toughest times.
- It’s so easy to accept His love, mercy, and forgiveness, but not as easy to extend it to others.
- Everything is so much better in community.
- He’s not finished with my story yet, even when the future looks a bit blurry to me.
There’s still so much more in store.. and God is asking you, “will you come along for the ride?”
I’ll leave you with one of my favorite quotes by one of my favorite people: